Samsara Once Again

I am in love with you. It's kind of a strange feeling to be honest. I never thought it could be a thing that could happen to me.

The day I actually met you I didn't really think about it. It wasn't like in the storybooks where it was love at first sight. It was subtle at first. Now... I feel like I can no longer breathe.

So now I'm stuck in this endless loop and wonder. Is this something that can even be possible? Is this something that can even work? Am I alone in this suffering?

Sometimes it seems that maybe you might feel it too. Then I'm not so sure. Should I tell you? Should I finally put myself out there and just express my true feelings to you? What would you say? Would it scare you? Would it make you run? Would it ruin everything?

But the truth is, if I don't do something... Anything... I will find myself still in this state. This cycle of self-perpetuating misery. Forever wondering if it could have ever been.

But this is a love that should never be... It must never be!

I have to let you go! I NEED to let you go!

But then you look into my eyes and smile. And I... Am in Samsara once again.