Sad poem

I shed a tear for you but did you do it back?

deep down am I feeling not blue but black?

I do hurt inside but do you feel the hurt too?

In hope, all you have to say is that I will get through

wishing i didn't have to fight for someone, a fight to feel understood and wanted ,

all I see is ghosting and I'm just being haunted.

I wanna give up deep down but you would you care?

do you think this is fair?

If tomorrow I wasn't here how long would you feel the sorrow?

Now, do I just wait and hope for good for tomorrow?

If I told you the truth, id be selfish, then how long would you blame me?

I dream of me just feeling high and being free

If you understood why I am like this would you still walk away?

I seem to always predict what you would just say .

If I said it differently, would you have taken it better ?

I used to write many of feelings into a letter.

If I tried to do my rights years ago properly it would have worked ,

Maybe just maybe it wasn't have supposed to have worked .

Would you believe me if I told you I pretended I was fine when I was not

I didn't mean to have this many thoughts, of not getting anywhere

Would you believe me if I told you, I'm too scared to try anything I don't already know the outcome for

I can't seem to keep friendships as there's always a war

No one understands my type of thoughts, feelings, and answers

Would you blame me for the way I am,

This life so far has been such a damn .

Would you think I deserve all of this to happen to me ?

saying I can't die, yet wouldn't you call this torture

will you let me carry on feeling like this?

will you just take this as a poem or will you see the picture I'm trying to express

Now let me end this and hope I can lay this to rest.