S^pp0s3d

i was supposed to shut my mouth

but instead i shut my mind

never before had i been so free

so free, but oh so blind

i was supposed to feel it all from within

but i crashed on another distracting trend

i didn’t know where i was for a while

no beginning and then no end

i was supposed to take a breath and pause

i was gonna stop and smell the roses

but i was the only thing this time

that got up any noses

i was supposed to be dead by now

but little parts of me still live

not really sure which bits are which

or how much i’ve left to give

i was supposed to be anywhere but here

yet the elusive alternatives thwart me

i did nearly everything like i was told

and i did it almost like they taught me

i was supposed to be dealing fiction

but i smeared the pages with bits of me

maybe too much all at once?

but it was only then that i could see