I miss you. I miss you
Because even if you didn't
Understand me, you always
Tried to. I miss you. I miss
You because even if my
Dreams and goals seemed
Silly, you never put me down.
I miss you. I miss you being
Supportive and giving me a
Place to escape. To vent.
I miss you. I miss being
Woken up with a cup of tea
And tennis on the TV. I miss
You. I miss your words and
Your mannerisms. I miss you.
I miss how my heart didn't ache
At the mere memory of
grabbing Pizza with you. I
miss you. I miss when I could
Walk in the store, see your
Favourite tea and not want to
Drown myself in it to stop
My heart from ripping apart.
I miss you. I miss listening to
Your concerns about doctor's
Because even though the topic
Was morbid, I would give
Anything to hear your voice
Again. I miss you. I miss
Your quiet house and your
Respect for my decisions.
I miss you. But more than that.
I realize I'm not doing this
Right. I'm not grieving right.
Is there a right way? I miss you
So much my throat swells up
And my heart is breaking on
A daily basis and I am drowning
In my own grief. I miss you.
I miss hearing you say "I'm just
Peachy." When I ask how
you are. I miss you. I miss
You so much the words have taken months to form and
Make some semblance of
Sense even if I can't speak
Them yet. I miss you. I miss
The late nights of talking about
Family while we drink tea.
I miss the glances when
Someone says something
Condescending to you or me.
I miss your advice. And
I am regretful. Regretful that
My last goodbye to you was
Over the phone. While you
Were coughing so much you
Couldn't speak anymore.
I'm regretful that my goodbye
To you was passed on by
My aunt. And I could hear
The concern in her voice
As she told me you were
Done talking. I'm regretful
That the day I was supposed
To come and have dinner...
Would never happen. I miss
you. But more than that...
My grief is never ending.
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