Reminders

Sometimes there are things I still want to tell you

but like it was intentional, time wanders on

I stopped and watched the sunset

and dropped my watch. I'm losing time

Every day after you, one after another slips away

in an ending I could have never guessed

Holidays come and go, but I've made no plans

another gathering of well wishers

Celebrating, laughing, planning, moving on

while I am stuck, an immovable anchor

And time, emotionless, carried you away in its current

leaving me standing on the shore, throwing a line

Trying to catch a second chance, another moment

only finding success in catching the judgemental glances

Of those that say, I should have moved on by now

my time frame seems to be out of touch

So, I spend another Saturday night

grocery shopping at midnight

Classical music cascading the vacant isles

streaming the airwaves searching for an audience

Just me and the night security guard

who is more interested in his phone

He doesn't notice me struggling with the register

the paper is out

And it won't make change

I am lost in the isles of Monday

seven days a week

I've lost the energy to talk to people

it's become a job

An inconvenience

it seems my world stopped with you

I rewatch the same movies

so at least I know what is coming

Not like real life

where the unknown lurks behind the corner

Or in the smile of strangers on the subway

if anyone looks

I have become vacant

a billboard with no information

Absent

closed off

Maybe I will tell you about it tonight

when I talk to you in my dreams

And maybe, just maybe

I can stay with you awhile

as the one I used to be

Until the alarm

drags me back

PLEASE...

Promise to remember me

in a place that was meant for people like us

And I will meet you there

when my time comes