Reluctant Moon
Finding comfort in phases
In the dim-lit murk of memory
where thoughts stick
like boots in the marsh mud,
I sink into an image of you,
under a full moon,
our first.
***
Seated cross-legged on the almost floor of the night temple,
almost because weeds pushing through the cracked soapstone
offered more flora than floor.
Two ruined walls remained standing, crumbling
No ceiling left for them to hold
Only the starless templed sky
***
You sang
off-key and with much enthusiasm
the melody long-since forgotten
but your feral face turned moon ward
remains in my brain, unwrinkled
***
While others chanted, you
and I, blasphemous, laughing, sneaked off into the dream green wood,
padded barefoot down the pulpous moss bank
knelt before a sacred tributary,
and pressing unholy lips to water,
drank.
***
I tried to leave you first in Kipling’s India,
in Matthiesen’s Nepal, Ishiguro’s England,
in my many disordered states.
Throwing I Ching coins for guidance
I sought answers in the book you gifted
and inscribed, “For all the changes.”
What chance did I have?
***
Time rolled on and over my jagged ambivalence
leaving scree in its crevices
like oyster sands turned to pearls
some days moon-lustrous,
others wound rope-tight around my neck.
And still we loved.
***
Where we went, we were
When we paused, we were
Why we were was an unanswerable question
but one we asked of each other lying beneath
five-hundred and eighty-six cycles.
Not countless,
but never counted upon.
As familiar and mysterious as the tug of those moons
not yet waxed in our waning years
Note: I met the man who would become my husband during a full moon in a ruined temple a few hours hike from Rishikesh, India. I was eighteen. I had zero interest in finding a life partner. But we are here still. We've gone though so many changes from global nomads, to successful professionals, parents to two amazing daughters, and now, creeping into what must be our final phase. When I feel unsure of where I am in life, the changing constance of the moon is a comfort.
About the Creator
Vivian R McInerny
A former daily newspaper journalist, now an independent writer of essays & fiction published in several lit anthologies. The Whole Hole Story children's book was published by Versify Houghton Mifflin Harcourt, 2021. More are forthcoming.
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Comments (7)
I love the imagery in this so much, well done!
This... this touched all the heart strings. Thank you
Sincere and conceptual. Really well done. 👍
This is a beautiful piece, and I loved your explanation at the end. Fantastic work!
This was so heartwarming and wonderful. I'm so happy you found your life partner. And I loved your poem!
What a blessing. You are very lucky to have such a partner. Loved your poem and images you painted.
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