Raspberry Freezer Jam
A prose piece about the matriarch of my family
The taste of raspberries always reminds me of my grandma.
Of spoonfuls of freezer jam in my oatmeal (that she made
from the raspberry bushes in her backyard, and maybe from
some out at camp, too). Reminds me how every few years, if you
cut back the vines, the thorny out of control stuff, then the roots
and everything underneath can flourish and next summer what
comes back will be even healthier. They remind me of how lucky
I am to have gone to my grandparents 50th anniversary, and of how
roses don’t actually make me think of her (even though her name
is Rose), but how Rosebuds do (my grandpa’s name was Bud). Or
how strong someone has to be to carry the weight of a family for
decades, to watch and raise and love kids without questions or
conditions for more than 70 years. Makes me think about how
hard it must have been to look after kids in the 50s, and the 60s,
and the 70s, and the 80s, and the 90s, and the 2000s, and the
2010s, and maybe most of all now in the 2020s when things keep
speeding up and old bodies slow down, whether you want them
to or not. They remind me of building forts in the cedar trees on
the side of the house out of string and boards that we found,
and how she let us spend all day trying to make something that
she knew would never work but instead of crushing dreams
she would just sit on the deck and sip iced tea and let us think
that we were really doing something. Or like how, despite playing
football in high school and going to a football school, she definitely
knows more about football than me and is a better fan than I’ll ever
be and how even though half of her kids like the wrong team, everyone
is always welcome to come over and watch a game and cheer. Really,
I think she knows more about every sport than me, if we were to put it
to the test. They make me think of all of the holidays when the whole
family would make their way through her house at some point, door
never closed and food never running short, always some fried fish
(usually perch), and always those melt-in-your-mouth cream cheese
cookies in the holiday tins (although sometimes you had to rush to
fight off the others to make sure you got a few before they were all eaten).
And all of the other days that we would gather, the whole lot of us, dozens
of cousins and second cousins… all of us dusty and sweaty and bit up
from mosquitos from playing kick the can around camp. They make
me think about how certain things are as sure an argument for
nature over nurture, like how I can’t sit still for long without getting
crabby (I wonder where both my mom and I could have possibly
gotten it from?). Or how for every game, graduation, wedding, or
other occasion she was there, for every grandchild (and great,
and great-great). How there are stories that should be told
about the old days and family members that aren’t around
anymore because they moved away in the 60’s and no one
has talked to them since except for grandma or they died
long before any of us were even born so none of us have had
the chance to know them, and how if we don’t ask sometimes
those stories get left and are forgotten. They make me think
about how you can be a bookworm at any age, and how so
many good years for a family can come from one person.
The taste of raspberries always reminds me of my grandma.
About the Creator
Colton Babladelis
I'm a nature lover that tries to capture the beauty and darkness of life in my poetry. I'm also a sci-fi and fiction fanatic and am branching my own writing out into short stories.
Comments (1)
Not only do I love the structure you used, but the way you broke it all up and carried the reader- I was so engaged, and with you at each game and bite. This was great!