Rarin' To Find

It’s hard to think

Let alone sleep, caught in my dreams

Someone to hold

As nights grow cold

In deep, dark, sleep

The love I gave, been unreturned

So, I felt burned

I pride myself

For giving help

When I’m in need

Yet, I could lose somebody

Yeah, I could lose somebody

That cares for Meee!

***

I’m just in my head

Always filled with dread

About my days.

I try to love

My very self

And no one else.

If I can’t love my Bod-Ay!

If I can’t love my Bod-Ay!

Then who would love MEEE!

***

So when I made a choice

In search of my own voice

What did I see?

I saw my meager frame

All myself to blame

No one else but Meee…

And so I HURT somebod-Ay!

Yeah, I hurt somebod-Ay!

And that was Meee!

***

I always wanted love

The more I chased it shoved

Away from Meee…

If fate could be so cruel

Depressing thoughts it ruled

Sending me to sleep…

It killed my own outside growth…

Of somebody that I should love most…

And that person was Meee!!!

***

For I was too afraid

To make the proper change

I want for Meeee…

But now I have to brave

All these brutal waves

Of my mind’s seas…

I could’ve drowned SomeBod-Ay!

I could’ve drowned SomeBod-Ay!

And I couldn’t BREATHE!!!

***

Alone in my brain

I thought I’ve gone insane

But I just weeped.

Neurochemicals

Putting Limitals

The Poison Seeped…

My brain just floated…

My brain just floated…

In depression DRINK!!!

***

I locked myself in a dark room, with my own thoughts

I talked myself through my own pride and faults

In the dark I floated…

In the dark I floated…

In a tank of salt!!!

But from on there I was not scared to be alone.

It’s been that way since I’ve grown and left from home.

I’ve got some more better headspace.

The whole world’s my own place-

Meant for Me to Grow!

***

Upon the land

With my own hands

The seeds I’ve sown…

To become the man

That I wish

So that I grow.

My own dreams are ComIng…

My own dreams are ComIng…

To be made TrUe!