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In, and out.

In,

And out.

I watch the silent swoop of the turbine blades.

The tops disappearing into fog, and then slicing their way back out again.

I stare out the window in silence

And vacillate back and forth

Between destroying us,

Is there even anything to destroy anyway?

And hoping that you'll come over when I get home.

Slip your arm around me.

Pull my clothes off to get to my skin,

Let me bite your lip the way I like,

Inevitably find my hand at some point

And marry your fingers into mine...

I love it when you do that...

Reach for my thigh so I can pull you deeper

Into this perfect space... Do this again,

And again.

And again...

This is the loop inside my brain

And it wonders how long

It and I can live like this.

The head, the heart.

The push, the pull.

One of them needs a mercy kill.

I honestly don't care which.

In, or out.