Plummet

I feel so much shame and inadequacy when I think of them.

I’m trying to shake it,

but the thoughts are not leaving.

Today was hard and I struggled to breathe deeply.

Lord, come gently scrub my heart with your cleansing hands.

The gate was closed on my good intentions.

I feel so sad and angry

with the state of things.

I didn’t intend for this.

I didn’t intend for this at all.

Some people say I seem confident,

boy, am I confident that they’re wrong.

I will drink some more warm tea and hope that it dissolves this baseball in my throat and these marbles in my stomach.

Thoughts plummet…

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