It is the exhaustion
It is the breathless games
It is the daunting history
The heavy memories you created
It is exhausting
The pleasant memories are fleeting
Like the leaves on the floor
From my opened door
Breathing in the fresh air
Feeling inner peace
Instead of fulfilling yours only
My heart continues to beat
But my feet won’t let me return
To days I’ve grown tired to
I extend my hand to help
You swat me away and complain
Your list of complaints are miles and days
I remember the smiles
I remember more of your complaints
Nothing is ever good enough
Everything is too much
No measure is just right
My presence when I laugh is wrong
My ideas are not ideologies but stupid
I am only beautiful if the room is empty
And even then i am not seen
Your eye will pander to the window
See happy me and complain
Oh it’s not that easy, you love to say
But to others you fall over backwards
And make sure they and the world sees
I sit back like a doll up on the shelf
Only referred to for reserves
Like the last choice of alcohol
The forgotten trash of the yard
Discarded easily, until wanted
Though I tell you this repeatedly
You’ll complain i ask for too much
Because respect is too much
Equality is too much to request
A genuine friendship is too much
A favorite you say,
Like a forgotten classic
Years of the heavy you bring
Weigh in on the door that released me
Sure you may care,
But your actions cause me to question, often
It’s exhausting
It’s breathless
So what is the point
Why would I willingly stay inside the cage
You try to keep me in
Picking the lock from the inside
With my bare nails
Willing to take the consequences
And fall and fail
The doors were never unlocked
But here I am free
Honesty and straightforward
Is how I communicate
but you refuse to try
And deep down you know I’m through
If it doesn’t matter to you
Then it is what it is
And I wont return to you.
About the Creator
Cadma
A sweetie pie with fire in her eyes
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