Perhaps If Time Stood Still…
I Could Do All The Things
I don’t know how it happened
But I am 49.
I don’t know how it happened
But I am a grandmother.
I don’t know how it happened
But I’ve had to learn to say ‘I can’t.’
Once upon a time,
Before I was a 49 year old grandmother,
I thought I could do it all.
I thought I could make a difference.
I never noticed as I ran
Time was slipping away.
Life has been filled with
Moments of heartache and pain
Moments of stress and busy things
Moments of connection and peace
Moments of love and joy
Moments in which I wish time would stand still.
Perhaps if time stood still
I could finish with the busy things
Perhaps if time stood still
I could breathe my way through stress
Perhaps if time stood still
I could grieve through heartache
Perhaps if time stood still
I could purge all of the pain.
If time stood still
I would spend more time
Feeling the warmth in connection
Basking and soaking in
The peace, love and joy.
Hugging until our hearts beat in unison
Absorbing it all
Into every fiber of my being.
Sadly, time will not stand still
50 looms around the corner
I know that isn’t all that old
But it’s old enough
To have slowed me down
The busy things take longer now
Leaving me to wish
That time could stand still.
About the Creator
Analise Dionn
This life began with trauma. Now married, with 2 adult children and raising a grandchild with FASD/PTSD/ADHD. Navigating this very personal journey of healing with ADHD, thriving after a lifetime of abuse... all through the grace of God.
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