panic.
a beep arises from the machine, like the one my alarm makes—stressful.
the blocked passageway doesn't move. a feeling arises in me
a feeling that i am afraid will never go away
it makes me breakdown
pushes into me like a gust of wind
makes me want to lay in my bed and cry
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i do cry.
my mom doesn't look happy.
i find her stare has an air of disgust.
i try to gather up my courage to tell the security woman my issue
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but everyone is against me?
what if she says no?
what if she laughs in my face?
what if she gets mad?
i am afraid. why? i don't know but the panic inside me arises like a bubbling volcano
what if she spits in my face?
what if my mom gets even more mad?
what is the security person doesn't respond?
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mom is yelling now, or maybe she isn't. it feels like yelling
i feel as if the weight of the world is on my back. how can something so small make me feel this much panic.
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i go through the security exit, my mom with her hands on her hips
tears streaming down my face i go up to the security woman and tell her.
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my subway card didn't have any money left
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she replies sweetly, with a smile on her face. that's okay honey, just remember to have it filled up next time
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i wonder what made me so afraid.
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23, born and raised in the sf bay area.
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