Palms Sweaty, Not Moms Spaghetti
In active addiction my life quickly went off the rails after abusing alcohol for years. I thought I was fine until I wasnt.
Blackouts, sweaty palms, night terrors
Waking up wondering where I was
Confused how I got there
My mind spinning
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I was hungover
Again
How could this happen?
Again?
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I told myself I would stop
I thought I was stronger than the alcohol
But the alcohol fought dirty
I was always at a disadvantage
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I was tired of the pain, the hangovers and the regrets
The one-night stands that filled the same black hole as booze
The destruction to my body was obvious to anyone around me
My bags under my eyes spoke volumes
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I was scared and alone in the darkness
But in that darkness, I heard a whisper
I looked around everywhere to see a flicker of a light
I ran as fast as I could to follow that whisper
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Before I knew it, I was in a room of unfamiliar faces with the same sweaty palms
Yet, they wore the same masks I wore
I could hear myself in their stories
I laughed for the first time in months
*
Alcohol no longer had the same grasp over me as it once did
I had found a place I finally belonged
I can remember where I am, where I've been, and what I did
Sleeping at night became easier, and I'm grateful
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I found a way to live that wasn’t just surviving
I can smile, and laugh
Writing became smoother and natural
The promises are coming true
About the Creator
Matthew Mccahey
I want to use stories and life experiences to allow others to be open about their own.
https://linktr.ee/Authormack729
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