Fleeting Love

Love

Love was fleeting

Ephemeral

The moment I reached for it

It disappeared right before my eyes

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I never understood why

Why I wasn’t enough

Why communication failed on both sides

Why I gave only to be taken advantage of

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Love does exist and I know this

I am enough, always have been

Nothing was going to change them or their minds

I wasn’t perfect either

Sometimes I took more than I had to give

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I feared losing them more than I cared to admit

I worked from a mindset of fear and loss

Rather than a mindset of abundance

Love is abundant and fear squeezes the life out of Love

Love wasn’t running from me, but rather my mindset

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That was a hard lesson to learn

To the right person I will always be enough

To the wrong people it never mattered what I did

Losing them didn’t cause me as much pain as the fear did

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I have to let love come freely

Because it is like a butterfly in the breeze

Floating by with not a care in the world

Free, and wild

Trying to control, contain, or change love made it run

So, I will sit and wait for that butterfly to come to me

One day It will land on me

On that day I'll know I no longer fear losing love