Pain
When I see others smiling and laughing
I wonder if I don't have muscles to enable me smile or laugh,
I feel it's not in my DNA,
I feel misplaced,
When will i be happpy?
When pain has overtaken half of my years,
Cuts and scars,
I don't feel pain anymore
I can't breathe
I'm dying slowy
Pain, my addiction
Sorrow, my attraction
I feel so much that my feelings are sucked into...
Into the whirlpool of my existence,
How can such imperfections be alive
MY Life needs terminaton
People seem not to be able to stand me
To stand how imperfect I am
My mere speech executes looks of hate and disgust
I can't think anymore
My brain is burned out
My heart has shrunk
I feel like a zombie
Undead and without a reason to live
I am visionless, I lost all of myself
Now I'm an empty shell,
My mere existence seems like a bore,
Many things are said
Many others are done
I hate this feeling
My unworthiness makes me shiver
Shiver in the cold of my existence
Cold shouders and hard looks
Makes me aware of myself
Aware that no one wants me around
I'm slowly moving away
Away from myself
Away from my reason to live
With all my pain,
I quietly suffer
I reverse myself
To the shadows
Back into my previous self
Tattoed, memories tattoed
Memories of my dark side
I got to embrace them
Death, alcohol, smoke.....
Music to my ears
Darkness my only refuge
Pain.....
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