Open

I have to remind myself

to open my eyes

sometimes,

because I've had

to close them tight

for so long,

I forget I'm living

Openly now,

showing myself

to those I love,

No longer locked

In the dark,

No longer in a place

I’m trying to forget…

And when I kiss you

I can open to see

You're so

breathtakingly beautiful,

It's almost too much

for my silly little heart

to believe–

And I don't have to picture

A gorgeous woman

While I close my eyes

To whomever

Might be

In front of me,

Because there you are!

In all your glory,

even more stunning

than I could have imagined…

And here I am!

Showing you

The true me

(To the best of my

ability).

The person you're seeing

Is as close as I've

Ever come

To being the reality,

(even if I'm still figuring out

what that means).

But there's so much

Risk there,

More than ever before;

You have so many

Obligations, while I

Am just

An option.

Maybe that should be

Comforting, that you would choose

To be here when

You have so much

Already,

but I’m afraid;

One wrong move

And I could so easily

Be abandoned

(again).

How do I know

You won’t leave

When I'm not giving you

Everything you could want?

And if you do reject me,

It's not some

Amalgam of

Pieces I think you

Want to see,

my interpretation of

your “perfect partner,”

But myself,

This inner me I've

Been hiding, protecting

After being

Hurt

So many times…

But here we are,

And we’ve come so far,

And you’ve shown

In a myriad of ways

Your honesty,

Your good heart,

Your open eyes,

So I’ll stay

(instead of my

Signature Move

of silently running away)

I’ll see where we go,

And learn to trust

In this moment

of

us.