On My Hill
The hill where I found peace and clarity
On this grassy hill I sit and write
I write about the memories that I experienced here
I used to come here to contemplate my life
Only to find more questions than answers
Here I sit once more remembering
The resentments I felt so deeply
I felt cheated
By friends, family and by life
I remember my affections being turned down
And watching her affections go to another man
A man I thought was my friend
Truth is he was my friend
It was my envy that turned my tongue venomous
I could never be happy for another who got what I wanted
But not what I needed or deserved
How many years, months did I waste
Holding on to seething pain
Pain that burned a hole in my heart
While they moved forward in their lives
My own choices were always my undoing
Blaming others is easy
Finding out you were the one to blame is a
much harder pill to swallow
I am reminded daily the karmic energy I used to put out
I strive to only put out healing energy now
The world has enough chaotic karma
I’ve had enough of the chaos.
About the Creator
Matthew Mccahey
I want to use stories and life experiences to allow others to be open about their own.
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