Numb

Numb

from the prescriptions

Numb

from the snow

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I can’t feel my fingers

Where’s the earth

between my toes?

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I watched as the snow fell

inside my home

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The coldest day of the year

fell upon the mountain

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February

A curious month

Gate of the Aquarians

Womb of the Scorpions

The month of love

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Numb

She forced me into the snow

I wandered door to door

in my black boots

in my pink puffy coat

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I wandered looking

for something I hadn’t known

I had lost

Something I forgot

when my heart went numb

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There she was

the woman with the birthday

2 days after mine

She held me in her presence

as the floodgates pried

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Bursting open

the river of tears

I held back for years

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Now even the numbness

cannot stop the flooding pain

I’ve hidden behind my smile

locked within my fears

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Everything went black

I don’t remember much

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Only snapshots of the day

before my heart flatlined

Numb from this reality

I can’t even say I remember that

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The day of the living numb-y

The night of the dead

Transformed into the

day I spent in a coma

all day in a hospital bed

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Awoken by the beeping

of my heart on the monitor

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I was alive

I could feel

tubes shoved in my body

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“What happened?”

I asked the strange woman

by my feet

Alarmed she exclaimed,

“My god, you’re awake!’

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“Your body went numb

from the drugs.”

“Your heart stopped beating.”

“You were comatosed.”

“We weren’t sure when you

would wake up.”

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“What day is it?”

“February 14th, 2009”

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I could feel my heart beating

on the day of love

The day I was conceived

I reclaimed my life

I could feel once again