It was one of those days today that I thought about you?
It was bizarre
like, I thought about our moments
and the times we wondered of the future
and I realized you've probably forgotten everything
but then I realized how well I got to know you in such little time
and that made me realize that
you. probably. do. think. of. me. too.
In stutters I talked in words that didn't belong with each other
as I reimagined the nights we spent together
and the chemistry we had
and the stress of first and second and third dates as
each one got friendlier and more comfortable
and the day I realized it was time we ended something
that hadn't even started yet.
and now I wonder what you're doing
and reimagine moments we had
but what is this feeling if it isn't love?
it isn't love because I think about being back with you
and I don't miss it
I think about texting with you again
and having all that drama again with you
and I don't. miss it.
and I was curious today to see
what had been the last normal conversation between
you and
me.
and going through the chats made me realize
that this isn't love
it's only blank, bare, bony nostalgia.
white, insincere, crippling nostalgia of
having someone there
and talking with someone real
and sharing conversations
that mean something.
but right now
I'm happy being away from such a toxic relationship
and I hate to admit it to you but
this wasn't love—
and I still don't know exactly what it was
that made me still talk to you after
the separation—
but all I know is that a part of it
is nostalgia
and the rest of it I still don't know.
About the Creator
Melina Giorgalletou
Just a college student from Cyprus, living in NYC, trying to find herself through words and writing.
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