No Explanation

V1:

Most nights I dont even sleep alot on my mind

When I do sleep I cant help but toss and turn

I have these crazy dreams about my family

That I might end up losing them all one day

Im not talking about them dying but leaving me

Leaving me all alone as I deal with my pain inside

I wake up out of my sleep as my eyes water

I am afraid to tell them what I dream about

They will probrably think that I am talking crazy

I love my family but they will never understand

I need to get help before I f**king explode

I have alot of pent up emotions wanting out

I refuse to let out so I just lash out all the time

I might not give a f**k about what others say

But when Im by myself I get depressed as f**k

Im fighting a battle that nobody can join

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This has been bothering me for a while now

As I get older and older I see a different person

Im conflicted on what the hell should I feel

Should I be upset or crying to my family

Because honestly shit is just complicated

V2:

My goal at the end of day is not to cause harm

So far I have been able to stay true to that

But the people around me are not being fair

They continue to ignore me when I want to speak

Sometimes I just want to see if they are okay

That is what makes me feel better inside

I can only name a few that care to check on me

It should be more considering my personality

But I guess that is not a factor at all anymore

I could turn into a a**hole and no one would care

I dont have to explain myself to anybody

Im tired of feeling like a piece of s**t

Like im the one that did something wrong

But you are the one with your head up your a**

Maybe you will realize that before its too late

I cant even look you I am so disappointed