My Name Too
Dear Nicole
Dear Nicole, your name and mine,
It writes itself here line by line.
When we were both still married to men
Love erupted, flame-burnt cayenne.
I saw so clear, on mountaintop
A vine hung high, from where rain drops,
And leaped onto its promise of
Finding selves inside true love.
It swung me through a jungle, dark,
Miraculously untouched bark.
Terrified with eyes squeezed shut
I held onto that last breath, but,
the clearing quickly waxed, I gasped,
And saw you there with arms unclasped,
We reached, yet barely finger-tipped
What might have been a stronger grip,
Knowing I would swing back through
The deep, dark woods - me and not you -
I let my free hand slip away
To kiss goodbye your heart that day.
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I’m sorry for what vision came,
For sharing half, a seeming game.
You see, I touched back down just now,
This is me telling you, avowed.
*
Please forgive me the break, reset
For the deny and the forget.
I would have stayed, unhappily,
Forced a smile through grappling.
*
Thank you, for a room to pack
For to not have to come back,
For the door no more uncracked
And for the ‘03 Cadillac.
*
I love you, you know, I do,
Like an ocean might love blue
For abstract beauty that makes clear
What it cannot see in the mirror.
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How’s your mom, by the way?
She ever get over you being gay?
Loving a woman using you to survive
Divorce aftermath in a self-exercise?
You would never see it so.
You would fight and kill that ho
Before she spoke words versus me,
The one who saw and set you free.
Since this is true, I offer here
Continued space, though it may veer,
To bring your freedom to full light
And finish my role, good and right.
*
“Dear, sweet Niki,” you would pen
In rainbow gels, as we did then,
“I’m sorry for controlling you,
For the need and trying to.
Please forgive all that I did,
All I did not to keep you hid.
Thank you for trying to be
Who I wanted to love me.
I love you, I know you know,
I doubt I’ll ever let you go.”
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Please do not send words to me
Please go on now, separately,
I’ll edit out your final line
Lest we continue throughout time
With uncut cords and energies.
Replace them now with memories.
It was right and good and free,
And now, goodbye…Sincerely, Me.
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Nicky Frankly
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This is beautiful - poignant and heart hurting. Oof, I feel like I have lots to unpack after reading it... thank you for sharing this!