My Hunt To Find Myself

I felt I had no purpose,

And I do not have a plan.

All I want to do is fuss.

I wish that I had a man.

I have some scars on my face.

Men abused me in the past.

I can't find a happy place.

A relationship won't last.

In the mirror, what do I see?

Someone who has no worth.

I feel anxious and lonely

On this place that we call Earth.

Some nights don't sleep at all.

I don't have friends by my side.

There are days I want to bawl,

And I want to run and hide.

Friends have laughed at my scars.

Voices tell me "You're no good."

I have fought battles and wars.

I don't feel like eating food.

To the voices I can't give in.

I need to find someone to talk to.

God, help me find the strength to "win,"

To be happy in life, not blue.

I felt peace overwhelm me

And felt I had to cry.

I knew I had to see

My worth, there's many reasons why.