my guardian, my protector
tw: an exploration of sexual abuse through poetry
I was young, terrified, and enamored with the concept of you
I was the grand exhibition in the gallery of your performance
The marble Venus, the Mona Lisa, the golden eagle
Immortalized by Facebook posts, selfies, and bragging rights
I was young, terrified, and enamored with the concept of you
I was your muse, as much as a little girl could be a muse
Your dress up doll, your play thing, your “bubble butt”
Daddy's special little girl
I was young, terrified, and enamored with the concept of you
So enamored I didn't see the signs
The tequila bottles emptied down my throat
The cold, cruel liquor greedily devoured in a vain attempt to impress you
The “you'll miss me one day” posed as a threat
As you poised yourself to haunt my dreams forever
Like a plague
A true, black death
I was young, terrified, and enamored with the concept of you
My guardian, my protector
My voice, my light in the dark
My Zeus
I was young, terrified, and enamored with the concept of you
So enamored I didn't see the golden bird you kept locked at your side, beaten into submission with voracious tongues
So enamored I didn't see you folding those bars around me, my own gilded prison, that would come to rest long after I thought I rid myself of you.
So enamored that I lied
Made you into Heracles when you were Gorgon
Beowoulf when you were Grendel
The painting, aging before me
A constant reminder of things
I
Lost
I was young, terrified, and enamored with concept of you
I was your lolita, your nymphet in floral skirts and roller skates
I was your scapegoat when things were sour
Unpleasant
I was young, terrified, and in submission to the concept of you
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