Morning Thoughtsđđ
(Too Good to Be True) Excerpt Out of a Book I'll Never Write. A Poem of the First Love of My Life Leaving and the Pain I Felt Behind It
Nights like these makes my mind wander to places Iâd rather not be. In a dark little corner that I donât want to see.
Itâs saying itâs okay and comforting me in the darkness. Not trying to give in, still trying to fight this.
Did you ever love me? Was I not enough? Or was that all shattered when you packed up all my stuff?
When did you realize youâd rather stay with her? When did you decide to make our memories a blur?
Oh please, oh please, the thoughts are getting darker . The thoughts in my head leaving me starker.
You said youâd never leave, how stupid was I, To not realize sooner that I was living in a lie.
You said that I was being jealous and that it was all in my head, Little did I know I shouldnât have believed a word you had said.
Because now youâre gone and there she is . All she ever wanted was to be his.
My thoughts are screaming now, theyâre getting stronger. I donât really know if I can take this much longer.
I canât believe this ever happened, I thought you were the love of my life. I always thought weâd make it through, that maybe one day youâd call me your wife.
But then we met her, and I thought weâd be fine, Not even realizing that she was standing next in line.
The darkness is winning, my demons overjoyed; They knew the weaknesses I couldnât avoid.
I need to cut, cry, scream, smoke, Anything to help me forget the last words you spoke.
Tonight I lay myself down and will dream of you. But youâll never know that, not even a clue. Because you stopped talking to me, like they always do, I guess I always knew it was too good to be true.
About the Creator
Sammie Smalley
20 years old. Young, native little hippie traveling the world and trying to help spread joy. Unfortunately suffer from Severe Depression, Anxiety, PTSD, Bipolar Disorder. Weed and Tattoo enthusiast. Photographer. Check out my workâşď¸
Comments
There are no comments for this story
Be the first to respond and start the conversation.