Monotonous Life

I wake to find my world draped in existential grey, a shroud I wear like a second skin.

A sudden sharp chill jolted me to my senses

Must have fallen asleep watching a movie again

Something familiar

My life story replaying on the screen

Reality hits hard as I took off the headset

Bare naked on this stainless steel table

Tugging away those tubes and wires attached

Others are lying still on the tables

Probably a hundred of them in here

In this massive detention

My legs gave way and I hit the floor hard

I must have been unconscious for too long

Dragging myself over with all my might

To the small window at the corner

It’s a desert outside perimeter by walls

In a faraway distance

Not sure how far is it

Probably take me days to reach it

Feeling lost

How do I comprehend this

What should I do?

Do I go back to sleep like the rest?

Surviving through what they are feeding us?

Do I make a run towards the end?

Climb over the wall and face whatever is behind it?

Will it be even worse than my current state?

Uncertainties lie ahead… What will you do?

Trapped in this monotonous shit day in day out

Do you stay because of its certain degree of stability

and you are used to it and you are afraid of changes?

Do you throw caution to the wind and start anew?

©Emika Oka

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Previously published on From The Corner of My Mind

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