Moments of Wonder

I will always wonder if you’re happy

I will always wonder if you’re well

You’re on my mind when no can tell

But I can’t cling to hope when I’m drowning

I can’t cling to love all by myself

I spend restless nights with your memory

Arguing with a ghost inside my head

Wrestling with the memory of us

Lying intertwined here in my bed

Lonely mornings find me reaching for you

Wishing you would reach for me instead

Time’s a pitiless god, and I’m its plaything

Every moment of grief is drawn out long

It hits me with each sip of coffee, each time the radio plays our song

Yet, our love was only a brief, breathless moment

Everything felt right before it all went wrong

I will always wonder what if, if only

I might wish that time had been more kind

I will always hope you’ll change your mind

Instead, I’m left behind, alone and lonely

With dreams and wishes and new love left to find

I will always hope that you’re happy

I will always hope you’re doing well

I’ll love you silently and never tell

But hope is not a friend if I’m drowning

I can’t cling to us all by myself.