Memories of War
Acceptance has been something I needed to come to terms with. Accepting my time in service has been a long and hard journey.
Trigger warning- war/ptsd
Once a soldier always a soldier
That’s how the saying goes
Some memories may fade
But a few never do
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I remember the day vividly
Only two things stood out
The smell of burnt flesh
And an overwhelming aura of death
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Jokes were passed around
Deflection
Anything to avoid processing what we saw
Detachment
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Then the drinking got worse
Disconnecting stopped working
The memories flooded back
Emotions of anger, bitterness and regret steamrolled through me
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I was back in Afghanistan
Back to that moment of pain
A moment I thought I had drowned
But you can't drown a memory
You only drown yourself
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Healing can finally happen
When I admit I’m not okay
I know I can't forget
But I can come to a place of acceptance
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We were soldiers once
We had purpose
What we did mattered and it always will
We knew great pain
But we also knew great love and compassion
I served in Afghanistan 2013-2014 with some of the best Men and Women Ive ever known. I am sad and disappointed over the outcome of what happened in current news. However, I will never claim that we did anything but our best over there. What we did mattered. Everyone paid a different price coming home, and that hurt each and everyone of us. Some felt like it wasnt worth it, and alot of regrets were developed because of it.
About the Creator
Matthew Mccahey
I want to use stories and life experiences to allow others to be open about their own.
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