Maybe I Love You

and like everyone else I realized

i had been filling the hole you left me with other hurtful confused fingers, that sliced me open to drain me entirely of everything I had.

even when I had absolutely nothing left

it felt like light years couldn't even measure up to the time you were gone

the hole in my heart was so intense, if you look down inside you might even be able to see.

i realized

it honestly had hurt to be alive, I wrapped myself around anything I could for something that would just waste my life

i hurt myself too many, too many

you were absent

they all were absent

godsent, and rotten.

i became lost, and forgotten, disgusting too rushed and

i guess I just missed you.

pt. 2

no offense, but i love you

i wish you could’ve been with me

instead of telling all those irrelevant boys how I felt about them

while laying under the stars

like they were so special I kept them there

why couldn’t I see

they didn’t want adoration just idolization, isolation, desperation...

even if, just, even if... you were the same way

i would’ve preferred you over them any day