Mania

my manic episodes drive me to different states sometimes

they use up all the gas in my tank

and money in my bank

on impuslive euphoria

then they drive me to anxiety

and i ride around biting nails down to the beds

rapidly breathing in and out

this cycle of nonsense

i can't remember what i've said or done because

i feel like i've done it all

i worry about it all

as i drive myself to the lowest trenches

in my abysmal sea

too far under the water for light to reach

criticizing the once happy feelings

for being so

for not seeing where they'd drive me

even though i've taken this route already today