Lying to Myself

(Disclaimer: I know this is not a popular sentiment, and will raise some eyebrows, but that doesn't mean the emotions and feelings are not true.)

If ever I try to leave you

Or utter I’m saying good-bye

If ever I tell you, it’s over

And I’m done,

Finito….

Good-bye

Just know, I’m lying to myself

To protect my pride and ego

It’s scary to be so independent

Yet so dependent on how I feel for you

So, I’m telling you now...

Just lock me up,

Toss away the key

Hold me down

Then tie me up

Send me to rehab

To straighten out my thinking

Buy me new glasses

So, I can see more clearly

And maybe even a hearing aid

So , can hear the truth from your lips

Get me drunk and stupid

Just don't ever let me go

I never will want to leave you

Even if the devil on my shoulder

Says I do

The angel in my heart

Will love you forever

So, feel free to

Just lock me up,

Toss away the key

Hold me down

Then tie me up

Send me to rehab

To straighten out my thinking

Buy me new glasses

So, I can see more clearly

And maybe even a hearing aid

So, I can hear the truth

Get me drunk and stupid

Just don't let me go

I’ve got a bad habit of lying to myself

- Julie O'Hara 2023

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