Lying to Myself

A Poem

Lying to Myself

Mind spinning, heart dying,

Eyes hurt, pain inside of me,

Can I continue lying?

Lying to myself.

Not what I thought at all,

Pathetic, Selfish, Immature, Bastard,

I will stand tall.

With or without you.

Fuck you, fuck me, I hate you.

You think I'm naive, you think you've won.

Its all about you and what you do?

Hey guess what? I have a mind too.

This isn't all about you, not anymore.

Material possessions are not important to me.

You can try to ignore.

But its you that has lost the game.

Mind spinning, heart dying,

Eyes hurt, pain inside of me,

Can I continue lying?

Lying to myself.

Not who I thought you were,

Shattered in front of my eyes,

An image turned to a blur.

Filling only with hate.

I will not conform to your ways.

Listening like a little girl,

I won't be caught in that haze.

Never again, will I fall on my face?

No matter what you do, I will be happy,

You were never what I needed.

And I wont let you make me feel rotten,

For something I didn't do alone.

Mind spinning, heart dying,

Eyes hurt, pain inside of me,

Can I continue lying?

Lying to myself.

Copyright MichelleTiffany

8-5-07

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Michelle Tiffany
Michelle Tiffany
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Michelle Tiffany

Hello, I'm 47, stay at home mother of 4, and a grandmother of 1. I love art, music, TV reading, and writing. I have a digital scrap store: www.michellesmyths.com

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