Poets logo

lust fragment 4

I was lonely. I am lonely. I have always been.

By Joe NastaPublished 5 months ago 1 min read
lust fragment 4
Photo by Yousef Espanioly on Unsplash


I love this humid city thick

with ghosts. Last night Emily and I


walked the highway and I told her everything

I knew about the city and the way it feels.


She was staying in a resort the locals

mock as "Fake Hawaii" and I am docked


on a ship that doesn't fit with the direction

the island is trying to shift. She felt the eerie-


ness, too, and was writing a poem about water,

light and dark. Last year we were docked


here for three months and I walked this stretch

drunk at night along the bay, listening


to Lana del Rey and reading Arthur Rimbaud.

I tried writing this poem but hid it all


inside a dream, which is overplayed

as a device in poems but easier


than telling you the truth.

I was lonely. I am lonely. I have always been.


I've walked in the light and the dark and the water

and in the thick streets filled with humid ghosts.


I told Emily this city was powerful to me.

It's not as true as I wish it was.


I trudged past the Kaka'ako cemetery

and swore I saw tombstones of coral


but this year I discovered they're not there.

I was obsessed. I am obsessed. I have always been.


But it was never this city that held power,

and it was never you. It was all of these words.

This poem was included in my book "I want you to feel ugly, too," which can be read on issuu.

love poems

About the Creator

Joe Nasta

Hi! I'm a queer multimodal artist writing love poems in Seattle, one half of the art and poetry collective Eat Yr Manhood, and head curator of Stone Pacific Zine. Work in The Rumpus, Occulum, Peach Mag, dream boy book club, and others. :P

Reader insights

Be the first to share your insights about this piece.

How does it work?

Add your insights


There are no comments for this story

Be the first to respond and start the conversation.

Sign in to comment

    Find us on social media

    Miscellaneous links

    • Explore
    • Contact
    • Privacy Policy
    • Terms of Use
    • Support

    © 2023 Creatd, Inc. All Rights Reserved.