Loving an Addict

How can I wake up in your arms,

when I am not in your heart?

I want to know you deeply,

but your secrets are a wall between us.

I want you to see me,

but your focus in always elsewhere.

I want all of you,

but you have given yourself to others things

and there is nothing left for me.

***

I want to be the object of your desire,

but I settle for being needed by you.

I want to be with you forever,

but I can't seem to slow the momentum of our parting.

I dread losing you,

but I realize I've never really had you.

***

Please don't let your pain,

and the things you use to escape it,

eclipse our love.

Don't walk into the arms of the things

that have no heart

and cannot hold your hand.

Empty your arms of everything

you hold on to for relief

so that we can truly embrace.