love

i know love is blind

cuz i fell into the arms

of darkness

and now i cannot see

because she holds her hand

over my eyes

but i know she is beautiful.

she has me waiting

at the window

for her return

i count the minutes

and the tiles on the bathroom ceiling.

when she is not with me

i do not cry

and i do not smile

i do not even blink.

but when she comes

for me

she brings me tears

and holds my hair back

when i vomit

memories

then we smoke cigarettes

in bed

and talk about

breaking things.

everyone tells me

i am better off

without her

but my body trembles

when she tells me of the sun

and how it burns

when you look at it

so i asked her to stay

the night

and maybe forever.