Fuck this stupid notion of love
Every fucking time I fall in love
They reject me
They fall in love with “someone else”
Someone better
I'm never the “someone better”
I am just “fucked”
Then Fuck it
I don't want it
I am so fucking done.
Every time I fell in love they always said no, like my high school loves
My boyfriend choose someone over me right in front of me in high school...
My girlfriend in high school decided she liked one of my good friends and dated him, leaving me in a dumbfounded and depressed state..
Another girlfriend cheated on me...
And of course I had to fall in love with one of my best friends in high school... A terrible tragedy I regret...
And my middle school loves..
And all my failed romantic relationships....
(My last relationship )
My longest relationship.. Someone I knew since elementary that I had a crush on during our early year's... We dated in high school and it was....
hell on earth
14 years of shit...
And I fell in love again
Like a damn idiot
I thought this love could be the one
The one forever
I've been abused and treated like garbage for 14 years and more
I thought they were the one
Well apparently
I am
Never
The one
For anyone.
I don't need it
I won't find it
I don't want it
I won't find love
Love never found me
So why should
I find it?
About the Creator
Melissa Ingoldsby
I am a published author on Patheos,
I am Bexley by Resurgence Novels
The Half Paper Moon on Golden Storyline Books for Kindle.
My novella The Job and Atonement will be published this year by JMS Books
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I'm never the “someone better”. This line hit me so hard, I started crying 😭😭😭😭😭 But please don't feel bad. It just goes to show how powerful your words are. This was such a heartbreaking poem!
I feel this one again quite deeply, Melissa. Though what you describe is much more extreme than anything I have known, still I feel it in my own naive way. May you be blessed with peace, grace & most of all love, whether you are the subject of this poem or not.
I have no words to say. This is really a heartbreaking story.