My subconscious is playing maniacal games with me
I am at a loss of thought on what to do about it
I wake up startled
staring into nothingness
like searching for a star on a cloudy night
This has never happened before
I hadn't seen you in many years
and suddenly I am being torn apart
as ground during an earthquake
by the tricks, my mind is playing
making me relive this nightmare
I had stopped giving you a space in my head and my heart
but this sick game of my mind has once again reminded me
of the longing I had for you
of what we could have been together
of what we could have meant for each other
of how I believed we were perfect for each other
like beach sand is made for the ocean
The horrors my subliminal self showed me
are those which I can't describe to anyone but you
but I know that you are not interested in listening
to what I have to say
because you made me feel like shouting in space
I don't know whether it's your ego or something else
that has always maintained the distance between us
But I know this much that you will always have
a special place reserved in my soul
I have and will always try to keep the happy parts
of you in that reserved space
but I am certain now that
I need closure
these games are evidence of that
It's only up to you to provide me the closure
But once again I don't have any hopes
The expectation of hope from you will
definitely suck the optimism out of my life
that I have built with such vigor and courage
I don't want to let it go
for the sake of my sanity
About the Creator
Tarun Gupta
A simple fellow writing stories, sharing experiences, sharing his perspective, trying to do his share of humanity.
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