Losing

Why is it

No matter how much I try

To fight

My hurt survives

Many nights I go

Trying to hold back these cries

Clawing at my eyes

Trying to calm my mind

So alone

Why is there no one to show me

It's worth being alive.

Eyes bulging because my head is imploding these thoughts so controlling, it's consuming, they want to come out with a shout but I won't open my mouth, teeth clenched I'm fuming, I won't let them go , down my throat they go, I grab at my throat as a I choke, my body is trying to fight me, it's doesn't like how I poison it , it grabs the nearest knife to slice me with all its foison, I try to take control but I'm losing, knife up right to my artery, with one smooth motion, my neck opens, out my blood goes in a commotion, as my blood bleeds, the poison flees, my thoughts freed, to swirl me, make me dizzy, as my hands reach trying to catch the air that escapes me, because I can not breathe, I drop to me knees, the room is turning into a painting,

Art speaks,

A brief story,

And it reads,

There's no escaping