Lonely

I feel alone

In a room full of people who tell me they love me

I feel alone when I sit in my room,

and nothing surrounds me but silence

I sit there and ponder

Why do I feel I have no one who truly knows me?

Tears escape frantically, hoping to relieve the pain

As I think back to the friends I hold dear

But none are near

For I’ve pushed them away

Out of my own insecurity

I know I am not alone

Why do I feel empty?

Why must I put a smile on my face day after day?

Maybe its because I genuinely do not love

Whom do I have to sit with in silence?

There’s a person sitting with me I do not recognize

How long have you been waiting for me to see you?

I suppose I feel lonely because

I failed to love myself before loving others