Unborn
Sitting in the window sill of her bedroom, staring out into the darkness of the world, feeling the emptiness arise, as the world’s echoes filled with chaos typically distract her mind, though tonight is silent. Sitting in silence for once feels beyond agonizing. The silence once brought peace. How can this be? Will silence ever feel the same? Staring out into the world. Continuing to grieve for the soul she will never meet. To leave this world before she took her first breath. Hearts continue to long for her, tears continue to shed. The understanding of being happy one moment, with a realization striking the next that her child will never experience joy. She will never have her first smile, oh her smile would have been alluring. To know her laughter will never be heard, one of the hardest concepts to accept. The aching strengthens knowing to never see her eyes open for the first time, to never watch her take her first breath, her first steps, or to hear her first cry. To know packing her lunch for her first day of school is no longer a possibility. To know being there for her first heartbreak will never happen. Her heart continues to fill with a bursting ache of the memories they will never share. The moments they will never experience. Her mother’s heart remains filled with unbearable emotions, overflowing out of her eyes, creating a lump within her throat. The aching continues, trying to find words to express the pain, though there are no words precious enough to begin to describe what the loss of her life brings. Scarcely hoping she felt each beat of her mother’s’ heart, that still continues to hold love for her soul. What happened cannot be made right, her loss cannot be restored. There is no beauty within their story. The reality of grieving her is far different from any loss. She doesn’t need solutions, she doesn’t need to move on from her child’s possibilities. She continues to acknowledge it, remembering who she could have been. The image of her child in her hands, remains, replaying as if it were a steady pulse. The painful truth is certain moments cannot be rectified, as they can only be carried. She will continue to carry her child’s possibilities throughout her life. She will continue to hold a special love within her soul. Often unsure of which pain is worse, the shock of what happened or the unknown.
Comments (4)
Oh, well done! This is immersive and just lovely. "from the pear lip balm sun song that will bake on in the heat of the day." That baking metaphor is so beautiful. 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻
Short and oh so sweet, so full of atmosphere and hope. Well written.
gorgeous work! So romantic & intimately Beautiful!
“I'll want to sip her gasp“ 😍 love that!!