Limbo of the Starved Artist

I've been neglecting my body

Neglecting what loves me

I've been neglecting

What tries to protect me

Why do you protect me

I've been a sorry wad

Trying to bloom green

I've been a lone cod

Aching to swim lean

My body

Do you love me

My sorries

How do you steer me

Love you

Love you

I don’t know if I can love you too

Hide me

Bare with me

I'm trying to bloom

Mint faces

Colorful pages

Flowing ages

Why cant I grow like you

Why can't I swim like you

I want to, I do

So I neglect my body

To try and swim faster than you

It's not envy

It's not lacking

But I will my break

Even if it means cracking

It's not a dynasty

It's not a legend

Its the soul of the bear

Whose cubs have gone degenerate

Love you

Love me

How do I say sorry to a body

Chin up

Stay firm

They tell me its easy

They tell me I should be

Kind mellow honey

Kind mellow bumblebees

But I

Have tried

And I end up stuck in lightning

Because I

Cant fight

The thunder that hears me striking

My walls

My tall windows

My ears

My wide-eyed puppeteer

Bear with me I swear

I'm trying to get us out of here

Bear with me I promise

Gaia will thank us for this

My cub my home

I need to leave you alone

My skin my hoarder

I can't stay here

If I mean to cross the border

So goodbye

My life

I shouldn’t have left you before

While I still was waiting

For his knock on the door

But the sky

Is bright

I don’t know if ill be forgiven

But at least let me have your pardon rite

We both have suffered

You tried to love me

And I tried to find love from others

We have failed each other

We have broken our ties

Maybe if I had better loved you

I wouldn’t have starved us from a longer life.