Perhaps that’s why I’m in turmoil. I should have spoken when I had the chance. Because that would have been me. Instead I held back. Because I feared being unwanted, and I feared pushing you away. And if it wasn’t fear of that, it was fear of making past mistakes again.
And I promised myself I wouldn’t be dictated by fear. Convinced myself it wasn’t that, and perhaps that wasn’t all it was. But if you leave after all this, even if you don’t see me the same way, it isn’t meant to be. It will save me time in the long run.
If nothing else, you taught me that there will be someone out there I can love again. You just happen to be an amazing one.