Letters Never Sent

It’s hard to look back with clear eyes. My vision blurry. You were always just beyond my reach. I thought it would be us, you know. I thought we would build a life together by the sea. But that dream was built in the sand. The waves would come crashing to the shore and carry that dream far beyond reality.

A part of me will go on living, while another part of me will always wonder what could have been. As I listen to the wind outside my window now, I know I am safer where I am, just beyond your reach. I cannot go back. I also cannot stay here. A destiny without you awaits me, and while that hurts, I know the universe somehow saved me.

As the days turn into months and the months into years, I will think of you. When the seasons change and the trees become heavy with the weight of their fruit, I will think of you. When I see blue eyes, it will be you who haunts the long halls of my heart. When I sleep, you will wander the corridors of my mind.

This is my release. This is my peace. This is my life, and for the longest time, I wanted you in it. I know I deserve better now. I know you can never be happy with what you have and will always look for reasons why it wouldn’t work. Though I’ve never felt your hands around my throat, I know now that you have the capability to destroy a life.

Author: JuliAnne Cedar

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