Letter 08/02/21

08/02/21

Dear Unnamed,

You fell in love with me at first sight— or so you say. That’s all I’ve ever wanted to have— a fairytale type of love. My dad claims he loved my mom at first sight. He’s always been so sure he loved her. I love quickly and unconditionally. I’ve always wanted it in return, but never thought I’d find it. And then I found you. And i could not be more grateful or happy or lucky.

I have a problem where I love too quickly and too entirely. I pour my soul into my love, and lose myself. People take advantage of my love. Most people are really good at taking and not giving. I believe there should be equal give and take. It’s a boundary issue. So I’m working on it with my therapist.

I turn 20 in a week and a half, but I am ready to settle down. I think I always have been, really. I feel crazy for being so ready. But I desperately want to find my forever and after. I want to find a love that transcends death. I want to find a love I have always found in my past lives and will always be called to in all of my future lives. I want to find someone who makes me believe in soulmates.

I read about this kind of love in my books, and therefore, it is probably not real. We, as dreamers, write about what we want with a passion, not what we have. So I will likely never find my always. But you said it was love at first sight for you, and I don’t know if I believe in coincidences. You make me wonder if you could be who I’ve always dreamed about.

Love,

Yours