Let Healing Come

Frozen. Motionless. And I can't move.

Time keeps moving,

But I feel frozen.

It feels as if things are in fact changing,

But why does it seem like everything is getting worse?

Why must my heart keep breaking into a million pieces?

Why do I keep having to put it back together again?

I don't trust anyone in this barren oasis of pain

So I have frozen over.

But pain can't be the only thing here.

Healing has to come at some point, right?

It has to.

I want this suffering to end.

I want the yelling and screaming memories in my mind to stop playing

Over and over again.

I want the sonic resonance and the lights to stop being thrown in my face

I'm sensitive to lights and noises

Give me some grace.

I'm trying.

Trying to heal.

But I feel so broken.

And I just want everyone to be okay.

But it seems like they are not.

But now that I have let it all out,

I don't feel so frozen and motionless anymore.

I feel a little more free.

Letting it all out

Really really helped me.

I know healing is happening within me.