Just Maybe.

Today, it’s been three years since you and I were over

But it feels longer than that

I know I promised not to say a word about it

But how could I not, when you are everywhere?

We both said “I love you” when we parted ways

The only difference was that I didn’t lie

My heart breaks every time

When I hear your name from someone’s lips

Why do I cry for you when you’re not even mine anymore?

Why can’t I give up on you?

I still hold onto the withered memories

They hurt me when I remember you

But I treasure them so much

I hate you, I love you, but you need to leave

My heart needs to rest after loving you for so long

And my mind needs to erase you forever

You’re not going to come back

I told myself; I hope there is that one day

That just maybe I can forget you.

But I don’t ever want to.

Even when I know I should.