Interactions with My Crush

I look his way every day,

the back of his head,

or even a profile glance.

My crush, my love.

Random small talk such as “Hey” or “how’s your day?”

With those short answers “hey” or “good”

Occasionally making way with a few sentences.

Nerves so bad, redness fills my face.

My hands shake.

Leaving the scene before I drown in “crush inflicted awkwardness”,

and am loving every second of these unforeseen interactions between he and me.

Us doing this dance with pure uncertainty.

Or at least,

A solo longing to be a duet.

My crush, my love, will you join me?

How can I show you? Do you even see me?

I am here, waiting for these moments.

Of you and I in the break room catching glimpses, passing by.

Is this true, or is it just me?

That one day you complimented me,

was that a hint or just you being friendly?

Recently I have pulled back in noticing you,

thinking maybe… we were not meant to be a “we”.

Downhearted, yet a little more at ease knowing I will not have the shaky hands or red-filled face,

let alone the excited nerves when I hear your voice.

But, today. Today we had the most words exchanged to date,

I noticed as he said “it was good seeing you”

I responded “what?”

He replied “it was good seeing you”

I then fumbled out a “it was good to see you too, thanks” followed by briskly leaving the room.

Could this be something more ?

Is he just being friendly?

We shall see..

As I see him daily.

My crush, my love.

I am still here, waiting excitedly.