Infections and Unhealthy Coping Mechanism
But still, I Pick
I pick.
I pick and pop and bite and squeeze.
I push the grease
from the pores on the sides of my nose
and the space between my eyebrows.
I scratch at the bumps on my legs
and pinch the ingrown hairs on my groin.
The cuticles
on my cracked and bleeding hands
turn to scabs and calluses
from my teeth’s constant attention.
My fingernails are short and uneven.
My boyfriend worries my hands will get infected.
My therapist says it’s an “unhealthy coping mechanism”.
But still…
I pick.
I scratch and pinch
until the once unnoticeable spots
become large red welts
devoid of skin
waiting to scar.
I should be getting ready.
I’m already running late.
But I’m bent over the bathroom sink
face inches from the mirror.
Check your hairline your chin the curvature of your jaw squeeze each piercing on your earlobes check your nose one more time your cheeks your chest take off your shirt to check your back sit on the vanity stretch out your shoulders to get a good angle assault all your freckles and moles just in case they’ve morphed into something juicy overnight.
You got one!
That was a good one!
But I bet you can find one more…
Just one more…
Go back to your face for just one more.
Oh you feel nauseous from the pain?
But this next one will be the BEST!
Ok no this one will be…
no this one…
this one…
STOP!
Better find a new shirt
one that hides those hideous
welts on your chest.
Now paint!
Lather your face with shellac
to cover the red.
Thick globs of primer
to fill those pores once again
so I can pick.
About the Creator
Sicily Palmeri
I've been writing my whole life but I'm a novice when it comes to sharing. I'm very excited to see what will come from my newly found courage in creative expression. Hope you enjoy!
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