In Shadows, I Yearn
My existential crisis
In the midst of my tears, I yearn for peace,
I craved to be a mother,
But now I see my mistakes,
They deserve better, yet I am consumed by anger.
Unlovable, they say, when I am raw and real,
Daily, I am shackled by my own fiery torment,
Their cries grate on my nerves,
When I am silent, perhaps they'll notice the void,
My heart is choked by a silent rage.
I miss her presence in my life,
I keep pushing my limits,
My mind yearns for order,
But my whims lead the way,
Searching for satisfaction that stays just out of reach,
Every choice is a battle or a retreat.
In this moment, I reveal my sadness,
The world must see,
I exist, even if shrouded in shadow.
Why do they care for me,
I wonder, doubting,
In my eyes, I am unworthy of love,
Forever a mess, never whole.
I try to fill the gap,
But the effort is tiring,
I cannot keep up the perfect facade,
The dream fades.
I wish I had been patient,
Waited to have children,
Accumulated wealth,
In a blink, the ring shone,
A symbol of a marriage now withered
About the Creator
A Lady with a Pen
Caroline Robertson's, books are beloved by both adults and children alike for their illustrations and engaging stories. She takes readers on an adventure, giving them the opportunity to explore different cultures, settings, and characters.
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