If I could take it back,
Every thing I said,
and
Everything you thought you
Heard, I would.
And this
is what I’d say to you
“I think of you often
and it softens nothing.
When you walked away,
It broke my heart
that is the truth of this.
I long for the laughter, your concern.
Yearning to hear your voice
never lost a friend before.
Sadder than actual death,
you walking around
Right in front of me
But not feeling blessed to be
In my company
I suppose
I never meant to hurt you
and now I’m seeking resolution.
Among all that confusion,
I didn’t have the courage to say
I apologize.
you didn’t give me the opportunity
to decide what
kind of fool i was going
to be.
You decided for me.
and you can be so cruel.
My armor has holes.
I struggle with vulnerability.
I lack the ability to
Heal in the speed of light
You know that though
Under your thumb
I build walls higher
Than babble could extend
But,
I want to listen.
I know you felt it.
But I am not sure
What I want to hear
Tell me anyway
Let me decipher your
Defense codes
And let us slip into modes
Of forgiveness
I am a witness to what
Good we can create.
I did my best
My character is sinuous
But, I didn’t try to deceive you
And you….,
didn’t tell me the truth.
So I struck back with venom
My choices gone
Cause you let them slip away into
Your fairytales of harm and
Untimely circumstance.
And as I released a sigh of regret
For my adverse reactions,
I missed you and all
The passion of our experience.
So I ask that you
deliver me from
your indifference.
Please.
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